Grad school is the scariest thing in the world to me. I contacted the local university to determine time limits, application deadline and requirements. But it FREAKS ME OUT. School scares the beejeezus out of me. What if I can't handle the commitment? What if I can't finish on time? What if I end up with a bunch of stupid people in my classes? What if I'M the stupid person?
Eventually, I'll bite the bullet and get everything together (like letters of recommendation from professors I haven't seen in the last 3 1/2 years). I could probably do it this summer, but I'm wondering if I just need some time off.
A little less stress. A little less busyness.
Maybe, this summer, I need to spend a little time caring about people who need some tenderness. Maybe I need to spend some time being tender before the Lord. Maybe I need to focus on trusting Him and His plan for my life.
I need to realize that those things are purposeful actions. I need to stop filling my days because I'm afraid I'm going to cry or mourn. Instead, I need time to feel those things so I can commit them to God and move into a new, less debilitating stage of grief.
And I'm purposefully going to make myself available...for whatever may need me...if I'm even still needable.
But Grad School, I'll probably see you this fall.
There isn't a time frame on grad school if you're doing it while working. Don't overload yourself...it sucks. However, as with everything else in higher education you just have to jump through a lot of hoops. (insert circus music)
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