Wednesday, May 22, 2013

The One Where I Develop a HashTag

Ryan is almost two months old and I still feel like I'm trying to get my bearings.  Some of that may be due to the fact that I had a few tiny unrealistic expectations.  Miniscule, really.

Like I thought losing the baby weight would be no problem.  I mean, my body was awesome during pregnancy.  My blood sugar got progressively lower as my pregnancy continued.  I felt good.  I slept well.  And until the last few weeks, my blood pressure was beautiful.  Oh, and I managed a reasonable weight gain--25 lbs.  (At least, that was my gain before being admitted to the hospital.  I was pumped full of fluid there so I have no way of knowing what my final gain was before Ryan was born.)

So I assumed people were crazy when they told me it would take some time to lose the weight.  I mean, yeah...time.  Like, 3 weeks?  4?  Surely by the time I returned to my classroom I would be able to button my pants again.  After all, I could still slide all of them over my hips and my legs stayed the same size.

De.  Lu.  Sional.

I have always been a chubby girl.  Rotund, even.  But at my fattest, the roles on my stomach were always relatively flat.  To quote Jen Lancaster, "A pretty fat."  I didn't realize when people told me to take loose clothing to hospital what they were actually saying was "You may look four months pregnant for a while.  Get used to it."

True to form, I look like I'm getting ready to identify the gender of my next baby.  And I'm seriously struggling to keep from beating myself up over all the progress I made last summer in the exercise/weight loss department.

I mean, I wanted this.  I wanted a baby more than anything in the world, and I am SO grateful for him.  So why I am a little depressed over this development?  Because I'm a girl.  And there's something in girl code that says, "Oh things are going too well in my life.  I have to find something to piss and moan about."

So before I get all look-at-my-baby's-two-month-pictures-and-how-much-he's-grown-and-why-can't-he-stay-a-baby-forever-how-does-time-go-this-fast, I thought I'd get this out of my system.

When people said, "Oh, you totally lose weight breast feeding," I heard, "You might become an international model if he nurses for longer than 10 seconds."

Epic fail, that one.

Even though nursing is supposed to filter most of the sugar out of my body, I still seem to struggle with my lady lumps (and not just the ones producing food).  Weird, right?  So now I'm back to really limiting sugar in my diet and I'm working toward cutting white flour completely (again).

Actually, that's the upside of this whole story: I found a wagon and I chased it down so I could get on.  And that is largely due to the fact that I returned to my school about the time the faculty has logged a joint 400 lb weight loss. 

It was like getting a kick in the teeth...but the kind that makes excited because now you can get veneers.

So in the footsteps of my friend, Morgan, who set a goal to walk 100 miles in 50 days, I'm pledging to walk/run 100 miles in the month of June.

Anyone else up for the challenge?  Let's hashtag it in twitter:  #100inJuneChallenge

What else do you do to get back on the proverbial wagon?  I'll take all the advice I can get.


Megan said...

Well I'm glad I am not the only delusional one. I told Matt last night, good Lord I still look pregnant. Being the sweet hubby he is he says it is just the shirt. BF has helped me immensely but now I am just stuck so I have decided to do the advocare 24 day challenge. It is modified since I am still nursing but I'm hoping that this will give me the structure I need and the jump start I so desperately want!

Established: 2008 said...

What an awesome goal. I definitely thought losing the weight would be easier too. Sigh.

Tienna said...

I love it and I'm in!! Once I figure out the whole hashtag phenomenon...

Post some more pics of that sweet baby boy, please?!?

HopeAnn said...

Count me in! I've been hearing all month from my son and my husband that they have been working out more than me. I keep telling them that I'm waiting for school to be out for summer. I have seven days of school left. Bring it on!