-1-After a frustrating turn (again) with Fat Tuesday, I went to see a nutritionist yesterday. I had spoken to a nurse before I met with him, and she assured me their "plan" was much lower in carbs than the diabetic diet I had been following. When I sat at his table, however, he showed me a plan that accounted for approximately 120-140 carbs a day. I was confused; he noticed my confusion and asked a question: "You look like you don't understand?"
I told him what the nurse said and stated I'd already been following a plan that kept me at or under 80 carbs per day. He leaned back in his chair and asked for details. I slowly began recounting carb choices, how I determine how many I get per meal and how I attempt to make that happen. Then he said something no doctor has ever said to me before: "It sounds like you're really trying. How did you learn all of this?"
I told him I read until it made sense. And I fought it for a long time. But my insulin resistance demands attention--no matter how much I'd like to pretend that any traditional plan would work.
We chit-chatted; he said he really didn't have anything to teach me. And, for the first time since losing a bunch of weight in a really questionable way, I felt like I knew what I was doing. So slow-going or no, this is where I am.
-2-I hate my legs. I love maxi-length dresses. I will buy as many of them as I can while they are "in" so I can wear them when they aren't. Don't judge me. (I bought another one at Sam's the other day. To date, I don't think I've paid more than $25 for any of those dresses, and I've gotten 2 from Walmart.)
-3-Laundry is no bueno. I'm envious of the women who know how to get smells out of under armor and how to keep mixed color clothes bright and clean. I did learn to use aspirin on my whites so maybe I'm getting the game?
-4-For the first time in a while, Favorite and I cooked at home last night. We roasted asparagus with garlic salt and fresh cracked pepper. This is totally the way to eat asparagus. Actually, with a few exceptions, this is the way to eat most vegetables. Get yourself some grapeseed oil and get on it.
-5-I've never participated in more than one Bible study at a time, but thanks to the prompting of my friend, Courtney, I am doing just that this summer. The first study is based on a book I read last year--Made to Crave--and is a focus in learning to fill our needs with God instead of food. There's a little more to it, but for simplicity, we'll leave it at that. The second study is Kelly Minter's Nehemiah we are hosting at our church. Courtney is leading; I'm doing the behind-the-scenes work.
Oddly, instead of being overwhelmed, I'm pretty excited about both of them...even when I found out our study has at least 25 women. (25! Women!) So I'm way outside my comfort zone and scared to death. But ready. So, so ready.
-6-I need to set an exercise goal. Here's the deal, though: I have no idea what sort of goal I should be setting because most long term goals seem to focus around the idea of running. I hate running.
So now I'm left wondering if I should get a gym membership or go it alone. Classes are out at this point, because I can't afford to get a rec membership for the summer. Thoughts?
-7-I so need a summer schedule. I don't do well with large blocks of free time.
So I guess I'll be sitting down to determine what my Mon-Fri will look like for most of the rest of the summer. Of course, exceptions are always welcome for people I love and miss. Blue Sky, anyone?