Warning: Whining to follow
For the most part, I like being an adult. I like the sense of independence I get from paying my own bills and coming and going as I please. I like making my own decisions--even though sometimes I avoid.
But I really hate that I can no longer pawn decisions off on other people and trust that the right thing will be done. I hate that things seem so much more ambiguous now than they ever did when I was a kid. I hate that there is no clear right or wrong when it comes to some decisions...but giving up and opting out aren't always positive alternatives.
I hate it when doing the right thing doesn't feel like the right thing.
I don't like being void a sounding board. The ones I have currently are just as baffled as I am.
So until I have a more definitive course of action, I'm throwing myself into school. I'm thinking about communication. I thinking about to incorporate realistic forms of communication in my classroom. I thinking about how to get kids to use the knowledge I've given them from previous units on a project they are doing tomorrow.
But mostly, I'm talking through strategies, problems, words and exercises with them. And while I'm doing that, I'm hoping that some amount of talking still makes a difference.