Monday, March 28, 2011

If You're Reading This

To the three people who actually read my blog (and boost my ego to make my writing feel worthwhile):  Thanks.  It's been a crappy day for NO reason whatsoever.  I think maybe I'm overly emotional.

Some days I'm like that, and I'm pretty sure it wouldn't matter if I were in Australia or not.  It's just where I am.  As promised, I want my writing to reflect the way my life actually works.  I don't want to get on here and spout platitudes and pretend my life is all sunshine, unicorns and rainbows.

I mean, there's lots of glitter.  But we're a little short on unicorns these days.

Sometimes I write things, rethink them and delete them. 

What I need is to involve more people in my life.  I don't need more obligations, but I need the opportunity to use this house to cultivate deeper relationships.  I have room to host and I want to learn how.

And I totally need to focus on something else...because too much time plus a not so great day plus emotions that are constantly awry leads to holes that are difficult to dig out of.

And Lord knows I don't need any more of those.

So here's to talking to, writing to myself.  Which might be worse than actually talking to myself?  At least when I speak there are no witnesses here.  And the sad part is that this is totally not even the reason I would be identified as crazy.


Armanda said...

I hope your day ends better and your tomorrow is even better than that.

Sheena said...

must be one of those days...I almost quit today. not work. everything. just quit. you know, throw your hands in the air and wave 'em like you just don't care.

wait, I just totally made my own day with that little throw back.

CaseyRhea said...

I am going to make you soooooooo happy right now! I won a Pampered Chef Cool & Serve tray.... keeps the veggies and dip cold while flit from winery to winery!!!! No cooler necessary!!!

CaseyRhea said...

right - I didn't finish that really... that means winery time! LMFAO

ktjane said...

Here's wishing you a few good unicorns!

Brooke said...

this seems like the thought processes i have had, and have frequently. even though i know that, when i have thoughts like these, i'm usually feeling pretty low and/or quite bad in general, it's still kind of good to know i'm not the only one. and maybe that'll comfort you, too. you're not the only one.
p.s i'm going to send you a unicorn in the mail someday.

julia. said...

I have those days, too, so you're not the only one.

Those days where everything rubs you the wrong way, and nothing goes the way its supposed to.
It sucks.

I have to mentally slap myself sometimes. But whatever works, right?

Anonymous said...

awww, I struggle with days like that too. It's kinda nice that someone else posts those not so great days as well. Sometimes I feel awful if I post anywhere on the net about my down days but it's part of life.